c_l_x

oh yeah,
i'm rocking on to jet!

haha,
cool stuff they have,
serious.
check out their songs and all,
real rock.

nothing much today.
so i'd talk abt sth else.
not as if anyone reads anyways.-.-


www.1x.com

THERE'S NOTHING TO CELEBRATE OVER.
i'm not gonna be celebrating my birthday,
or any other things.
cause i don't see a point in doing so.
cause it isn't worth it.
the world's suffering,
so fucking badly.

imagine,
if you had to rummage through the rubbish that people don't want, to earn your next meal,
if you had to run from the firearms pointed at your head, just because governers can't agree to each other,
if you watch your neighbours,friends,family,relatives,
all vanish,
one by one,
in front of you.

when one day,
you return home from school,
to find your family members lying on the grounds,
in their own pools of blood.

when any moment,
you know that the world,
your world,
would crumble,
and the pieces are scattered so scarcely,
that its just too hard to pick up,
too hard to piece back.

where the simplest joy isn't man-made,
its when the safety of your loved ones are conveyed to you.

WHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS SUFFERING,HOW CAN YOU AFFORD TO CELEBRATE?


www.1x.com

stop to think,
from time to time,
to remember that there are people living life way worse off than us,
and sometimes,
stop to think how YOU can help.

the world is OURS.
WE are living in it.

life goes on,yeah.
la la how the life goes on.

yesterday was the boomz!
me and tm,
were at uni qlo at 313@somerset.
shit the sales,
i bought a hell load of stuff.
really,
it was squashedlikethaaaattt.
haha,
we had to queue to get in lah.
and the best thing was that we spent 119 plus in total.
but i had to buy jackets for me,my sisters and dad,
supposedly only using 40 bucks.
HAHA,
but i spent 30+10+10+20 in total....
HAHA,
=70.
damnit haha,
but it was all on sale:(
and we saved 80 bucks in total eh.
so shld be alright.:)
i hope.
HAHA!
i bought two shirts,
jeans,
and a electric blue fleece jacket.
way more ex than the other jackets.
cause the ones that i initlally wanted did not have my damn size.
FAR KING HELLZXZ.
haha.
but,
nvm,
i like the colour:)
BOOMZX.

thailand next week,
PLACE YOUR ORDERS!
haha.

ASHIN HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
meet you for dinner tonight.*winkz winkz*

La Di Di La Di Da,
how did i ever get this far?

means qian bian.
was in sch today to help out.
guess i wasn't much of a help,
cause i cant move things,
can only sort-.-"
haha.
PW IS A FAR KING 13ITCH !
)*#%%^$&*#(!
okay.
done,
haha.
MS KOH CUT SHORT HAIR!!!
haha,damn cute lah,
now she looks like a small boy.
AHAHAA!
in case i don't have time to post,



ITS ASHIN'S BIRTHDAY IN THREE DAYS.
his smile rocks.
its like a young child's,
filled with innocence and plain joy.
COME SINGAPORE AND CELEBRATE WITH YOUR WIFE!!!
happy early birthday,ILY:):)

they just dont understand,
why i like it here so much.
because i'm away from YOU people.
because i'm in my own space.
because i don't need to face the crazy things you always ask of me.

3C YOU'RE ALL THE BEST:):)
i love every class that i was in :)
all so fun and happy go lucky.
we are all so damn bonded:)

haha,
will remember all the burnt marshmellows and the mad things we barbequed,
the crazy half played game of hide and seek,
the unstartable fire-.-,
scrambled eggs cooked by charcoal,
the 炸"蛋",
the thanksgiving session,
and everything else that only memories can tell in a better story than words.

please don't read this if you don't want to spoil your mood.
come to think of it,
i really don't want to grow up,
i want to stay this way,
stay as a class.
don't want to take o levels.
its just a load a crap,
trust me.
you work for four years,
just to sit for a two hour paper,
and get only a number that fk determines your future.
what kind of sick system is that?
hmph.
fffk them.
the hell lah.

GOT AN SLR TODAY!!!
D5000,
my god,
i really nvr thought my parents would buy.
they suprised me today,
maybe even changed my perspective of them.
maybe,
just maybe they're not so bad...
oh well,
having fun with it,
today's etched in my memory.:)
OMG,ASHIN'S GONNA LOOK SO CLEAR IF I WENT FOR CONCERT!!


THESE THREE PPL,
ASHIN,

LEO,

SPHINX,

ARE ALL FROM GROUPS,
AND ARE ALL DESIGNERS.
AND I LIKE THEM ALL.
i didn't even know that they were when i said i liked them-.-
haha,guess i have an eye for guys who are musically talented,
and good designers:),
must be my standard good:)
they're all hot,anw;);)

oh yeah!

think they're damn damn damn damn cool.
haha.
yesterday was out with tm and ophe:):)
to ION,
far east,
ps,
etc...
damn fun,
lunch at some hk cafe,
ophe got a bag at FE,
i got stuff at muji:)
popcorn damn cool!!
and i got cds at westmall before going home,
YOGA LIN!:):)
haha:)

that's jet,
song's start the show,cool right?

START THE SHOW-JET
Running down the alleyway
Stepping on the hearsay
No stopping what you can't stop
They tell me
The push comes to shove
Yeah you don't need a watch to know
What time it is

Don't need a plan
We can fall into it
Just ah
Like a domino
Here we go

We can roll
Rock and soul
You know what time it is now start the show

Build a fire
Watch it grow
You know what time it is now start the show

Driving on the interstate
Licking off a silver plate
Swinging like a heavy-weight
I am free now we can roll with the show
[ Jet Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Yeah you live fast you die alone
Now break the mold

Don't need a plan
We can fall into it
Just ah
Like a domino
Here we go

We can roll
Rock and soul
You know what time it is now start the show

Build a fire
Watch it grow
One, two ,three now baby start the show

We can roll
Rock and soul
You know what time it is now start the show

Ladies and gentlemen we're ready to go
You know what time it is
Start the show

apples from KL taste real nice.

URGH,DAMN YOU ASHIN,UPDATE YOUR DAMN BLOG!!!!!
I'M FREAK DEPRIVED OF YOUR NEWS!!

makes me so sad:(

i need to know what you're doing damnit!!!

nothing much these days.
haven't been contacting the usual friends of mine,
feel like i've lost the touch of being a good friend.
maybe i'm not even near that.
i'm so damn selfish,
so damn intolerable.
its no wonder i'm such a failure at everything.
heh.

i don't want all these,
i want to be back at sch.
i really miss it badly.
there was so much to do.
now i'm stuck here listening to my mother complaining how tired she is
EVERY.DAMN.TIME.
she's always saying the same things.
its always "i'm so tired,i'm very tired."
and i did tell her,
if you think you are then you really are,
but if you think otherwise then you're not.
damnit,
if you want to complain to me then TAKE MY ADVISE.
you don't know how TIRED WE ARE TOO.
FFFK.
if all you could ever say is negative stuff,
then i think it best for you to shut it up.

today is a SICK IN THE HEAD DAY.
haha,
we are all perverted ppl.
okay.
helped mr seow with his art room spring cleaning just now.
HE CAN MAKE A FORTUNE OUT OF TURNING IT INTO A COCKROACH BREEDING FARM
it was damn well infested and invaded..
hell,
even his acryllic paint had roaches,
and the cupboards are filled with their eggs.
OMG.
damn perverted.
check this:
lx;hey your shirt got happy face,at your stomach.
mr seow;err,i won't say where the eyes are.
!!!
haha,
GAY.

hadn't posted in a LOOOOONG time,
i realised.
MOD 2
DAMN FUN
at night.
haha,rem 1st night,chantel and the HOD room,
the cat,
after that hiding the food in her shirt,
was EFF funny!
then....
was the last night party,
which i kinda missed out,cause
i was DAMN TIRED.
haha,LOADS OF FUN AND LOADS OF CRAP WE DID.
okay,ask me if you want to know...
HAHA.

NB CHALET.
fun also,
but hell was the place creepy.
even my father said so when he went to pick me up/
BBQ,
CYCLING..
beach,
THANKS TO YH AND HER FAMILY FOR COOKING AND SETTING UP FOR US:)
thanks for the fun you netballers gave.
sorry that me and sinwei went off the first night.
WE REALLY CANT HELP IT.
there was sth that yall didnt feel back there.
but oh well,
we're all okay,
thats all that matters.

he's got a smile that it seems to me,
reminds me of childhood memories.
where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky.
now and then when i see his face,
he takes me away to that special place,
and if i stared too long,
i'd probably break down and cry.

hai,
830am to 430pm of leadership briefing is EXTREMELY STRAINING.
but it is worthwhile.
guess that there's a lot to learn to be a good leader.
i just hope that i CAN be one of the better leaders.

alissa and nicole came over today.
was a little late,
but was fun:)

can't wait for module 2..
maybe not anymore.
i think i got my menses:(
so good luck during mod 2.
sucks man,
i shld just be a guy and gay with ashin.:)
but either way i'd want to be with him!
HAHA!.
okay,nonsense.

damn tired....
still doing some planning...

hear this:
mum:lixian,do you like bread with magerine(sp)?
lixian:oaky arh,why?
mum:no lah,cause i have a carrot flavoured bread...
?!?!?
the hell has butter got to do with flavoured breads.
HAHA!

okay,
body works,
damn freeaky....
nvm,
damn tired now,
talk tmr,haha,
ppl came to my house today,FUN LIKE MAD,
talk tmr,damn tired,byeee.

okay,
the internet is damn boring,
like nothing to do...
boring...
need to find a meaning in life!!!
ARGH!
need sth to do,
keep me occupied,
music can only do so much,
cause it isn't my life YET.
i'm sure it will be one day:)

ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin ashin:)
haha,
miss him a lot,
idk why.
maybe my brain's not occupied enough..
too much extra space.
HAIX.
BORED BORED.
stalking ashin isn't much fun when the man himself does not update his blog on a regular basis..
:(
SAD LIFE LAH!
JUST UPDATE YOUR BLOG CAN!?!?!

shit,
early morning high on mai ya tang:)
haha,so cool:)

argh,
stayreal and outerspace are damn expensive!!
lower the prices you dimwits!
rawr,
one shirt costs 50-100 bucks,
damn you designers..
which are..
ASHIN AND LEO.
haha,gay ppl..
leo's damn gross,
haha,
he always has been.
nvm,
too gross for lj,
haha..
ASHIN UPDATE YOUR DAMN BLOG LAH!!

yesterday,
training,
i suck badly,
freaking not concentrrating,
not good,
no stamina..
haix.
lunched with netballers,
towned too.
brought yh to far east with mil...
walked ard too,
nothing much..
then went to ion to get flats.
i plan to design the flats myself:)
haha...blur throughed the whole day,
though.
was damn tired.
sun was hot..

tired,tired,tired.
so damn sick.
idk,
i just want to open the windows of my house,
and shout
"GO TO HELL !"
and probably get arrested for it.

i am
nothing,
useless,
as my parents say,
as they depict.
see?
you cant even do well in a seven subject combination,
what more can you do?
nothing.
slack,slack,slack.
thats what you're best at.

yep,i'm bipolar.
see that right?
i have always been.

materialistic.
lazy.
rude.
inconsiderate.
stubborn.
irritating.
narrow-minded.

i wouldn't lift a finger even if i could lift the universe.
i wouldn't play the piano even if i knew the song.
i wouldn't start drawing even if i knew how nice it would be.

i'd just stay this way,
who cares?
i bet i'm sick in the head.

shit,
woke up in cold sweat today.
recent flus are doing me bad.
just finished The Hounds Of Baskerville last night,
does no good to help tonight,
trust me.
damn scary.

and so therefore,
i'm up now.

oh well,
going to fb,
mak the full of the time i have,
i guess.
then gonna check on you-know-who;)
hint hint:name starts with A;);)

but i'm bored..
haha,
suddenly felt as though there was something missing here.
guess its cause i have nothing to do?
nah,
maybe cause i haven't been attending guitar lessons for...
two weeks.
hmm.oh well.

idk why i'm up so early.
my air con was leaking yesterday,
so it was a hot night.
now its fine.

aw,
friday was the best!
haha,
went mad after POA paper,
towned with lydia,yh,tessa,px,caren,
damn fun!
walked ard,
TRIED shopping for M2 clothes,
but gave up..
met tm and amanda after.
went ion...
saw ms koh AGAIN.
haha,saw her once in malaysia...
haa..
thx to caren's dad for sending me to buona vista!

BOREEEDDD/
haha,
sat was fun too..
pepper lunched,
sunteced..
HA,lameness afterwards.
oh well,
boomz.O.o

AHHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHHA!

If that's all to living,
I wonder how much more there is to life.not much,i guess.

-clx.

unfair,unfair,unfair.
thats what the world of today is.
not that it wasn't in the past.

i'm gonna piss everyone off one of these days.
honest.
the hell of this world is too much to take.

maybe i've seen much.
its exactly as said during our chinese class.
you don't bloody CARE what i want.
you just care abt what YOU WANT FROM ME.
you put your expectations of yourself on me.
learn what piano when i was six and the doctor wanted to scan my brain for hyperactivity.

what irony.

sometimes i wonder who's the one who really cares.
i mean,
why did i care?
don't worry,
if i'm able to i'd support you back in future.
you don't need to worry,
but what you've done now,
 我知道在心里,
记在脑海里.


if you don't know the truth,
please don't give an answer that was made up.
go find the truth.

justice was never justice.
please.
its just a nice word,
makes everything look fair.
deception.
that's just because its an excuse.
a court of law,
is set by humanity.
maintained by humanity.
made up of humanity.
and corrupted by humanity.

a circle goes back to meet the point it started from.
corrupted,corrupted,corrupted.
by humanity.

他妈的,
又冷战了.
天啊,
到何时才能放下这"面子"之武器?

倔强是只巨大的壮牛,
不管地向前冲,
眼神不留一丝恐惧.

不肯服输.